Today’s my first day back to the grind after the August long weekend. This weekend was in many ways life changing. I got a lot of closure from things, I had a new door opened for me that I thought was forever closed and I relaxed. I relaxed a lot, actually. It was amazing.

Now that August is here, so is the hunt. I’m a blank canvas going into the next month. This time next month my entire life will be completely different. I’ll be living else where, I’ll be feeling different, and with the door I mentioned above being open, I just might have something new to embark on. Who knows. I’m void of emotion and expectations. Blank canvas.

This weekend was filled with releasing someone from my life for good, a friends birthday, star gazing, the sweetest msg I’ve ever received, getting away from home for a couple days, relaxing on the patio with a glass of wine, a girls night on the patio ending at the bar, another relaxing patio and wine day (incase you haven’t caught on, I’m a bit of a wine-o), family dinner, a day on the beach in Kitsilano and reading in the park until the sun went down.

It looked like this to me:

I decided to change this from “30 Days” to just, plain, “Meme” and bump it down a priority. What can I say, I get bored easily.

This is the song you put on when you wanna bawl your eyes out. My lady, Linds and I have this kind of inside joke about it; she introduced it to me back when I went through a mind boggoling break up.

I love Gavin DeGraw. I actually got to meet him before a show in 2008. He’s a really sweet guy. Show was amazing, by the way.

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I’m currently in the process of moving. Boxing, purging, planning, etc. One of the most exciting parts of moving for me is decorating the place. So, I’m on the hunt for some design inspiration. Today I’m checking out living rooms.

The last one is hands down my favourite. What do you guys think? Which is your favourite?

I’m having one of those moments in life. You know those moments when you know that everything is about to change? The future is clear but unclear all at once. Everything is about to change for the better, for the amazing even.

The last two and a half years of recovery have been, to be cliche, a roller coaster. Up and down, over and around, usually ending back at up. Things usually seem to have a way of working out for me. Along the way I’ve learned a lot of things.

• Sometimes, no matter how hard you try, it just isnt enough. I’m a very guarded person, but I’ve gotten much better. I’m learning to open up to those who are important to me. I’ve learned to speak up and voice my opinion regardless of how others might interpret it. I’ve opened up more in the past few months than I ever have in my entire life but I’ve also experienced some hurt from this. My apologies to those who haven’t seen it as enough, or have taken my comments or resposes for more/less than what they were. I’ve given up fighting for certain things. Eye to eye isn’t always seen.
• You don’t get to chose your family. You also don’t have a say in the amount of support you do or do not receive from them. As unfortunate as this may be, it is possible to turn this around. I’ve chosen to take the high road. Their doubt is my fuel, my drive, my determination.
• You need the right people in your life. Negativity is just as contagious as Happiness. Which would you perfer?
• Take each day as it comes. Its good to have plans and goals, but things happen. I used to get frazelled when something came up, now I’ve learned to smile through it. Life is unpredictable, and to be honest, I don’t mind a few curve balls here and there to keep me on my toes.
• Love yourself. This is so very important. I’ve encountered far too many people who rely on others for their own happiness, or spend their days feeling down on themselves. If you have a life, then the possibilities are endless. Learn to love yourself and the world around you; everything else will follow.

What’s with the reflections on life, anyways? Well, my friends, I’ve finally reached the end of this chapter of my life. September 1st I’m leaving my past and this arm pit town behind. I’m moving to a new city with a great friend of mine. The best is yet to come. Life is about to begin. I can’t wait to start telling you all about it!

This has become more of a “when I have nothing else to blog about” thing than an excuse to update daily. But, still fun, none the less.

Day 15 is actually suppose to be a eally? Me? A fan fic. Well that’s a waste of a perfectly good topic. So, I’m changing this to things I happen to be a fan of.

• EVERYTHING ABOUT SUMMER.Trips to the lake, driving around with the windows down – hair blowing in the wind, late nights drinking beers and wine with my friends, trips to White Rock, bon fires, camping, flip flops, BBQs, road trips, hysterical laughter, shorts, bathing tanning, and anything else you can dream of while the sun is out.

• PEP TALKS FROM DADDY. I’m going through a lot of stress right now with tensions where I’m currently living and all the things that come along with searching for a new place to live. Every time I start on something, or get excited about something, or discouraged about something, Dad’s there. I can always get the best encouraging speech from my daddy and I always get off the phone with him feeling like, regardless of whats going on, I can do anything.
• BOOSTER JUICE. I loves me some Booster Juice. The best smoothies, with nutritional additives such as protein, echinacea, fibre, and other products such as ginseng or rosehip called “boosters”, which you get to choose. I’m addicted. They’re amazing.

• YOGA. I’ve been taking yoga classes for a couple months now I think. I was hesitant to get started because it always looked so intriquite and I wasn’t sure I’d be able to do it. Now that I’m into it, I love it. There’s always a variation if I can’t quite get to the full pose and my body feels much longer. My favourite benefit so far is he effects its had on my slouching problem. I’m really tall, and its hard on my back. Yoga’s helped loosen up the aches and made me more aware of when I’m slouching in my seat.

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